Hockey Fannage!

Okay – so there are many many hockey fans, and there are many many more hockey bandwagoners. Nothing wrong with either I guess, the more support the better. I just want to say though, whether you are a new fan or a long time fan – there should be no crying in this game, no hyperventilating, no breaking things. People seem to take things just ONE step further with the game. YOU AREN’T PLAYING – YOU ARE A SUPPORTER! Maybe shed a few tears for excitement, but its the rioters and the people that ruin it for everyone that just suck.

Canucks play tonight – series is tied 2-2. I hope we win – I love the fact that we have made it this far – it is so special. I just do NOT want to see a riot. Lets hope I make it through this night.

BIG GAME DAY!!!!!!

10 Signs You Should End Your Relationship

Somebody asked me what I wanted in a relationship lately, and really I knew what I didn’t want more so than anything. It made me think that I should create a list of the 10 things I wouldn’t stand for in a relationship, and maybe it will help other people see the same things I do.

1. Lack of respect. If he expects dinner on the table, and you also to clean up after – I wouldn’t consider that a keeper. You aren’t his maid, you shouldn’t have to follow him around and pick up his clothes either. I think a relationship (no matter who makes more money) should be a 50/50 effort. If one person makes more of an effort than the other then what is the point. You respect him, so why shouldn’t he respect you? Look at the time we are living in, we aren’t in the early 1900′s anymore.

2. The things you used to find cute you now find annoying – meaning you have lost the attraction. You have to be attracted to the person you are with to keep up the excitement. Can you get that attraction back? Why do you want to vomit at the sight of this person? If you cannot figure it out or fix this issue, then why stay in an attraction-less relationship?

3. When was the last time you had sex? This ties into the above, if you lost attraction then you probably aren’t having sex. Sex is an important thing in a relationship, otherwise you are just spending time with your friend not your lover and well you don’t want to fall into this category. And if he isn’t getting it from you, is he getting it from else where (because THAT would SUCK!).

4. Do you have a feeling in your stomach something is going on? Cheating, doing things he says he isn’t, maybe he is keeping things from you? I truly believe you should always trust this feeling because it is usually right. He is probably lieing to you, and as much as you want to know the truth – spending all your energy focusing on him and trying to get it out of him isn’t worth it. You deserve happiness and should just move forward. (Obviously always easier said than done, but after the fact for me I believe i would rather just move forward and forget.)

5. Plain and simple – you just aren’t happy. Why would you stay with a person you are unhappy with? If you aren’t happy now, then 10 years from now, 3 kids later and a chaotic life – you probably will be really unhappy and it will make for a long life if you don’t start off happy. Happiness just makes everything better and even on the days that you think you will never find it – you will.

6. You are keeping secrets from him. You have stopped talking and telling him everything. You find yourself pulling away. He is supposed to be your best friend and the person you tell everything too – you shouldn’t be keeping secrets from him. If you are, then I don’t think it is right. No matter what the issue is, or the problem he should be able to let you tell him and help you through it and if you feel he will judge and would rather hide it – this isn’t a good sign either.

7. He wants to change you. You are who you are he should love you for that. You shouldn’t have to compromise who you are to make him happy – that wont make you happy. If he doesn’t like your job, car, your clothes – he can’t change you to be what he wants. If he isn’t happy with the person you are now, then he definitely wont be happy with the person you are down the road and problems now will only get worse with time.

8. He brings you down. He is hurtful in what he says (maybe he actually is hurtful) but even the slow way he has eaten away at you and brought you down over the years – that isn’t right. He should love you and take care of you and make you feel beautiful. Nothing worse than having a person slowly chipping away (or maybe quickly) at who you are to make you feel worthless. If the words he says are unkind or he says things to make you think of yourself as less of a person then that is abuse and nobody should have to put up with it. All of these things are bad signs because I think they only get worse with time. I’m a bit skeptical that if a person goes to get help if it will get better because most times they don’t even realize what they have done or want to change.

9. Family. This is so important, maybe you spend excessive time with his family and he refuses to see yours? Why should you have to give up your family, why should anybody? I think it is a bad sign if your family doesn’t like him and for some reason he wont come around to anything family related. Both sides are JUST as important and without family then life is pretty boring. Your parents raised you and you should keep them in your life as much as you can, and just because he doesn’t like them – they maybe you should just ditch him for that one alone. Do you really want to compromise by getting rid of your family? Who has always been there – him or family?

10. He is cheap – I think a guy who makes more money and is still cheap is a dirt bag. I’m not saying a guy should pay for everything, but you shouldn’t let your gf go into debt because you want to live a higher life style and split everything 50/50 and make her feel bad for not being able to. I do think the girl should do what she can, but I do think the guy should be reasonable and try to not be completely cheap.

These are just some of the things that are on my list that I do not want to deal with.. but after so much negativity and after meeting this great person I have realized what I want. I know that he is not even close to touching anything on the top 10 list above but here is a top 10 list of what I want (and he is.. so far):

1. Happiness & love – I just want to be this happy years from now (or happier!) Can I be this happy with this person years from now? Will we work through anything and fix our problems together?  Heavier within this topic – but how would he be with a family?

2. Laughing – joking around and having fun is so important, just getting to be silly and always having fun no matter what you are doing. Having a sense of adventure is always fun. Travel, road trips, last minute camping trips!

3. He enjoys his work – but still has time for me

4. Self sufficient - he CAN clean and knows how to do laundry and maybe even cook sometimes. He believes that to make the relationship work it is a joint effort.

5. Family – his family is just as important as mine. I would love to be able to get together with his just as much as mine. I also want somebody that will go away with me to visit my family at the family property as much as possible. If he does all that then I would travel anywhere for him and his family. I think family is so important – and I don’t think one side is more important than another. Also my family must like him – they can generally see a bad guy way before me, so that is a huge thing!

6. He is emotionally available and will listen to anything I have to say and will never judge. No matter what the problem is he is there and will work through it with me. He is like a rock, and will always be there and is consistent about it.

7. No matter what – he always makes you feel beautful.

8. He is always talking about you, which mean his friends know about you (which you have met) and just that alone creates a huge sense of trust that it is only the two of you.

9. Trust.

10. He likes my dogs – these guys are my family and if he doesn’t like them then he is easier to kick to the curb than to get rid of my dogs. These are like my children!

Countdown to Vacation – 1 day left!

1 day left until I am off work for 10 ten days. 4(ish) days left until I will be laying in the sun and catching up on my celebrity gossip magazines, covering my body in oil and just BAKING in the sun. I used to love the sun.. I stopped tanning in a tanning bed this year – I went to tan 3 times in the last 2 weeks, and I feel like I’m already overly dark meaning I fear what I will look like when I return. In preparation, I bought tanning oil + (BIG PLUS) SPF! (whoo!) Maybe I should get a hat? Hats do look very silly on me though..

There is something about just laying in the sun and falling asleep and just relaxing that is nice. With everything that is going on I may find it hard, but perhaps a few drinks and good company and I will be able to enjoy myself?

Currently, clearly, working hard at work right now. Getting everything finished up before I go away, and try to shut out the emails.

The hardest part about vacation for me is stepping away from work. I mean, it should be easy – but I like to always know what is going on. I keep getting told to make sure I ignore work and deal with it when I return, but I mean – it is SO tough to do. I will try my best, but I don’t think I am capable of completely shutting it off. Maybe I could if I was on vacation somewhere without internet and phone service – maybe that is the trick. But where would I go without internet? I do think it would be relaxing but not knowing would make it just that much harder.

I think going away will also be hard because I can’t take my dogs with me. I have two dogs, that I treat like my children and in a perfect world I try to do as much with them as possible. Obviously there is always things that they cannot do with me (like going away this time) but for the most part I get to take them with me everywhere. I always have a tough time being away from them, perhaps I should take a few pictures of them with me – my little fur babies. <3<3

Anyways – thought I would write a little bit each day to try to get back into blogging so here is a start! Tomorrow is Friday, so excited!!

In a slump.

Today is day three of still not feeling like myself – what to do, what to do? I feel better, but still not great. I’m still feeling pretty terrible and this is the first time in as long as I can remember feeling like this. I keep trying to think positive thoughts, listen to good music, catch up on celebrity gossip – but nothing is really pulling me out of this like I want. I will be not thinking about things, having fun and then for a moment I realize things and my mind starts to wander.

I feel like trying to convince yourself that everything is good when it isn’t is the hardest thing to do. Normally I brush things off very simply and easily – but for some reason I can’t right now. It is terrible!

I just have a couple of days left of work and then I have 10 days off work for vacation – a week in Vegas! I love the sun – the sun fixes everything (I hope). I just am not even looking forward to going away right now, but I think some good distraction is needed. For myself, I find that going away and relaxing is more time to think about stuff and things get worse and I would rather work. This is probably why I tend to over work myself. If I am working I don’t have time to think about what is really going on and deal. I’m not good at dealing.

I have never been so down – this is so so terrible even laying in a tanning bed isn’t cheering me up like it used to. Never a good sign.

Hrrmmmm….

Today is just one of those days, I can’t help but feeling terrible and just stupid. These past few months have been a lot, and I have been going through so much stress and pain – without trying to divulge too much into everything.. I want to try to move forward and really just forget the past. I hate just realizing how “blonde” I have been.

I have these moments from the past that “ping” me for a second and they are becoming less and less, but they are still there. When this happens I just get reminded of the strangeness of things and wonder if I should give up or keep going? I keep thinking about how I didn’t realize how things were and just makes me feel so silly. I feel this less and less – however something is said and you really can’t escape it. Since this is a less frequent occurance – it is a sign that I am significantly moving forward from the terrible-ness and working towards a great summer. I have a sweet list that I will accomplish and life really isn’t that bad. I have great friends and family to thank for all of that.

I am a very strong person that doesn’t let a lot bother me in front of people, I tend to keep things bottled up when I feel like I just want to lay in bed a cry. Just a good solid cry to get rid of everything that I am feeling. I have moments where I am so happy, but at the same time I just feel like I want to run away from everything and forget it all. The only way to truly forget what is happening is for time to move forward – running away doesn’t do anything. I cannot run to a different town or get a new job, friends or family. I feel like I take too many other problems into my own hands and I just haven’t had the time I need to sometimes process the things that bother me. Things in this world that keep bothering me, and people that keep bothering me.

What is bothering me?

People in this world who only care about themselves, the liars and cheaters and the people that are so into themselves they don’t even know what is going  on. These people complain because they have no friends but yet they really don’t get why. Somebody really needs to wake these people up – people need to show some compassion! These people will never change, nothing anybody says or does will change these people. I need to accept that these people suck. How many genuine people are actually out there? How many people are hiding behind a curtain that shows them as good people but deep down they are not?

There will always be bad, no matter how good life is. I cannot change the world, nobody can change the world. I have a great life, two dogs who keep me happy and everything I need. Instead of focusing on everything else that is going on around me I need to focus on what makes me happy.

What makes me happy?

Sunshine, sushi, tanning, a beautiful view, going for a drive with amazing music, dance parties, friends & family, good conversation, laughing, walking my dogs, a good movie, amazing people <3 and many many other things.

There is so much to look forward to in life – and spending your time being un-happy is a terrible way to waste it. Focus on good things, work through the bad – life isn’t over..

My dog Mugsy <3

Okay – so I have this dog, he is a Puggle (Pug X Beagle) and is ADORABLE. I love him to bits, but let me say that he is more emotional than a human! When I first got him nearly three years ago I made sure to do research on what a Puggle is and how to expect them to act. I read “cuddly” which is always cute, “energy” which is good, “playful” – ideal as I also have a Pom. When I brought him home, he was “angry”, “a fighter”, “clingy”.

As the time has gone on, he is obsessed with sleeping under the covers between my legs – and if he isn’t between MY legs he will really sleep between anyones. He feels the need to always be with me, on my lap no matter what/where we are. He has no sense of boundaries and gets upset when I leave him. He is the kind of dog that when I go away for work or on vacation only my mom or dad can handle him because after a couple of days he gets visibly depressed and misses me. He doesn’t adjust to change well – every time I move I deal with him angry for moving and he will eat my underwear, clothes, furniture, bedding.. really anything. What this comes down to is – what have I done to create this??

Clearly my dog being this way is a training issue, and I am in desperate need of some doggie counselling. For now, I guess the only way to solve this problem is to walk him more, take him with me more and pretty much cater to MY DOGS every need.

48 days until summer!

Yes- the count down begins!! Only 48 days left until we are officially in summer mode! This means less clothes, more oil and tons of fun!

Here is my list of what I want to accomplish this summer:

- Asian Night Market

- Whistler Zip Line

- Camping

- Water Slides

- Oosoyos

- Rodeo

- Squamish Fest

- River Rafting

- Beach

- Learn to surf

- Spend as much time at my cabin as possible

- Apply for reality TV shows

- Get a wicked tan!

- Kettle river

- Grouse Grind

- ROAD TRIP

- Drive in movies

- Sleep under the stars

- Chief

- Cliff jumping

It has been a while..

I haven’t updated this blog in months! A lot has changed in life – which is all for the best. I have learned many things about myself.. Since January I have been spending time trying to figure out what I want in life, deciding what will make me happy. I have found this at times difficult – but here I am 5 months later and happier than ever. I have a job that I love, amazing friends and people in my life.

When I first started this blog I wanted to make it a discussion, and now I want to use it more as a journal. I find things to be better when you vent about them. Sometimes the best place to vent is online – where people can judge silently.

I recently deleted my Twitter account, because I realized I didn’t enjoy it. I still thoroughly enjoy creeping people on Facebook, but I do feel like that is something that will have to go next. I feel like if I was to put up a picture that I really like as my profile picture, people get mad – cause drama and that isn’t fair. If I want to post something there should be no repercussions. It shouldn’t matter who I’m with or what I am doing. If you’re my friend on Facebook you are just that for a reason and if you aren’t then please do not judge. I want to do things that make ME happy and I want to cut every piece of high-school drama from my life and the only way I know how is to pretend like it isn’t there and ignore it.

I think the key to success is finding happiness – and I think to get there you need to accept many things and learn to tune out the bad. I think negative people suck, and doing without them elevates a significant amount of stress. Stress is never good, and neither is being stressed for months at a time. I believe stress by terrible people is much worse than stress generated by work.

I have gone through some terrible times these past few months and even after dealing with some not so good stuff  I am very happy to say that I didn’t pull through holding on to these bad things. I sometimes like to talk about them, because talking my way through things helps but I don’t think every person in this world sucks and I don’t think badly about other people because of a couple of bad people. I feel like I will put up with less, but sometimes forgiving and forgetting is never good. If somebody does something terrible – you should remember that. Forgiveness is amazing, forgetting is something that shouldn’t happen.

There are a ton of amazing people in this world and I look forward to meeting these people and getting to know them.

Anyways – I plan to write in this as often as I can to update with what is on my mind.. So please enjoy – and if you judge, do it silently <3

Not sure what to do this weekend?

So the weekend is quickly approaching – and do you know what you’re doing yet? I know today is Friday and I still have no idea what I will be doing. But here is a list of neat things happening that could potentially be fun to do:

- Dine Out Vancouver – Ends this Sunday!! Lots of great places to eat at and great excuse to try something new: http://www.tourismvancouver.com/visitors/dining/dineout

- Chinese New Year Parade – Sunday, February 6, 2011 - Go celebrate the year of the Rabbit or Hare in Chinatown!

- At Cineplex theatres across Canada you can catch a modern movie for only $5! It starts today, February 4, 2011 and goes all the way through until Thursday, February 10th.

This weekends movie line up:

Friday February 4: Back to the Future, Alien, Aliens, Predator

Saturday February 5: Lord of the Rings: Fellowship of the Ring, The Two Towers, and Return of the King, Big Trouble in Little China

Sunday February 6: The Goonies, Ghost, Dirty Dancing, The Usual Suspects

- This weekend is also the 23rd Annual Snowball Dance Competition: http://www.snowballclassic.com

This weekend is looking pretty good for things to do! And February looks like it will be a fun month with all the Celebrating Olympic Events going on!

Cheshire Cheese Restaurant – #Vancouver

There is a little restaurant in Vancouver – it looks cute, fun, reviews aren’t the best; it made the dine out list – thoughts would be “it can’t be THAT bad, plus it has cheese in the title!” Perhaps as you can already tell, my reviews are usually for the negative and yet again here is another negative review!

Cheshire Cheese Restaurant SUCKS! We got there and there was free parking – BONUS! The place was practically empty, which may not be a bad thing. We ordered our drinks, and the Cesars were bland. I mean, a Cesar is clamato, Tabasco, Worcestershire, a rim with garnish. I wouldn’t expect them to be difficult to make, however I was proved wrong. My guess is they are very hard to make, and that is why they were tasting like they missed something.

Moving on, we then ordered a couple of appetizers: mini beef tacos and mushroom caps. Please, see the image of what we got:

Tacos, were tiny and were filling-LESS and the mushroom caps, were just plain gross. The food got taken away from us as it looked in this picture, with a bit or two missing and our waitress never once asked us how the food was. She asked if we were done, and took away the full plates.

Needless to say, I will not be returning to this place and I don’t recommend anyone else do the same.

Any one else had a similar experience? Anywhere I should be avoiding additionally?